BIG news

so....BIG news came our way in june. that's when we found out we're pregnant!!! it's exciting...some of the time. it's scary the rest of the time. i'm realizing how BIG changes really freak me out and the unknown gives me lots of anxiety. even though i'm reading lots of info, and i have many people around me that share their knowledge with me...i'm very aware of the fact that every situation is different and that mine may not be like anyone elses. i'm entering trimester 2 and then it'll be the third and then baby! oh my!!!!!

so SICK and TIRED of all the fakeness in people. be real...be proud of who you are and be THAT person. don't do it by putting others down-that just makes you more fake. don't do it in secret-that makes you fake in front of others. do it ALL the time. try it out...you'll find that it's a stress reliever!

we're doing with the youth group AND done with that church. long story short, after REALLY getting to know them they are not the kind of people we want to surround ourselves with.

well...i don't even know how to express my thoughts. jim and i are now in a place in which we feel stuck. not in all aspects of our life, really just one. we just don't know what to do or how to handle it. we're surrounded by complacent people who are basically stuck in tradition and we just can't seem to get them on board with being challenged or changing from what they always know. one might ask, maybe they don't need change? i would argue that's not true. change is needed because when one does something simply cause that's how it's always been...that leads to complacency and when you're complacent you're not willing to accept challenges or listen to people other than who you've always listened to. i'm ready to give up...i don't really think that i'm suppose to but i don't know how to push through.

hmmmm...so it's been about a year since i last blogged. so much has happened and so much has not happened...
for example: we've established ourselves with the youth and i think we have a great core but we haven't been able to attract new people yet...emphasis on yet.
-we've changed the format of how the youth group...just started so no input on that.
-i got a job...well 3 to be exact, teaching. but no single full time position. this makes me a bit overwhelmed because i have 3 different schools to deal with, different books, people, agendas etc
-we moved into a house...didn't buy one but we're enjoying living in one.
-no baby but we got a kitten...roxy-love her
-jim got alot more responsibility at work, but no pay raise

i suppose i could go on and on. over all though, it's been a good year. and for as much that didn't happen, i'm thankful and happy for all that did. this year's gonna be a good one and i'm excited to see what it holds!!

starting sunday jim and i will be the head leaders for the youth group. we're excited but also nervous. although we've worked with youth in the past, it's never been to this capacity. we have alot of ideas but i'm unsure as to what will actually work and what will be a flop. for right now it's a 6 month commitment and then we'll reevaluate. ideas from others would be helpful!

the title of my blog is nshek words...so i'm suppose to writing my own words, my thoughts. yet i don't know what my thoughts and words are. i feel as if since we moved to michigan i can't really but my thoughts into words because i don't really know entirely what they are. it seems as if perhaps they are starting to settle but i still have to unjumble it all.